WADDUP YALL...DAMN ITZ BEEN A WHILE SINCE I WENT ON HEA BUT NOW IM BACK...U KNOE IM PROUD FO BE WUN FLIPAWAIIN....HAHA...FUCK I DUNNO WHY I SAYING DAT BUT AITE?....I GO ON MY SPACE ALOT..SO IMA PUT UP A LINK SO YALL CAN TAKE A LOOK...SO JUS GO TAKE A LOOK AITE?...WELL IMA BOUNCE AND FLIP THE HAWAIINS...????....AITE SHOOTS DEN BAH!

To mah lil one

I want u to have the life that I neva had..i want u to be 10 tymez the better life then I had…I want u to grow up to be the best person that u ever kan be..see therez so much in mah life that I could have done better but I messed those things up and thinking about it now hurts..thats why I want u 2 have the a better life then me because I don’t want u to knoe how this feelling feels like..im telling u it hurts…but ill tell u how Im gonna help u…u knoe I would die for ur protection and safety..anytime that u have bad times..Jay-Jay is here to help u thru it…u knoe that I don’t wanna see u in pain..dont wanna see u sad…even if I ste at work and im barely home..juss remember one thing..Jay-Jay loves u… im still here and all the others that help me out…anything u need…juss ask Jay-Jay….Jay-Jay is here to make things better….

Who I`d like to meet:
Part II
id like to meet a gurl thats stays true and will love me for me...not fo wat i have to give...she has to make me laff cuz i dont wanna a relationship that i cant laff...she hass to trust me no mattah wat cuz i wont do anything behind her back....she has to be cute...she gotta knoe how to make a guy happy... she has to have a gude tyme wid...juss agurl that i could love and spend mah tyme wid..She gotta be straight up and honest from the start all the way to the end..if not, fuck her…dun want a fucken liar in mah armz…I wanna be holding on to happiness..i wanna be holding on to the gurl that wouldn’t lie,keep shyt behind yo back, and would be straight up and honest…

Cristabel:

IM SORRY...PLEASE TAKE THIS APOLOGY AND FIND IT IN YOUR LOVING HEART TO FORGIVE ME....

Numbness:
I try mah best..fuck I don’t knoe wat I do wrong..wat I do aint doing rite…shyt wat am I soppose to when everything comes down to it..i try to get over it…I try to make things better but fuck!...is fucken hard and painful..dont wann go thru this shyt no more…fuck eversince the 6th grade, I cudent be mahself…its like mah heart went numb…cant feel love no more..at least no rite now..dont want this fucken shyt wid gurlz hu only play wid yo mind…fuck dose bitches…bitches die..so let um…now, this thing wid dz mutha dat keepz pissing me off..u thing that I playin now?..fuck!...i wanna fucken kill u already!..next time u come on MY street, in front of MY house and get all up in MY face, u betta fuken think twice cuz therez reasons why I dun wanna get mad,ask ever fucka how I waz in the 6th grade..if I still had that fucken temper from the 6th grade, shyt I wude hav fucken batted yo fucken head long tyme ago…I telling u cuz, I can get that temper back, don’t piss me off..and u knoe hu u are…

GOD, DONT TAKE MY BABY AWAY FROM ME

EH CRISTABEL!...WE STILL PLAYING DAT SWEARING GAME...HAHA....U NOT SOPPOSE TO BE SWEARING ANYWAY..U STILL BABY GURL CUZ...HAHA...NAH NAH..I JUSS GOING TALK TO U WHEN YOU  KALL AITE?...

SHIT..LIFES BEEN A BITCH..LONELY DAYS BUT STILL GOING...I NOTICED THO..EVERYTIME SONETHING BAD HAPPENED TO ME, I ALWAYS FOUND A WAY TO GET THROUGH IT...I GUESS THAT GOD HAS SOMETHING PLANNED FOR ME OR ITS ALL JUST LUCKY SHIT...BUT THE WHOLE POINT THAT IM WRITING THIS IS TO MAKE A SHOUT TO EVERYONE

IVE BEEN THRU SUM CRAZY SHIT..MOST U CANT EVEN THINK OF...BUT I ALWAYS MADE IT THROUGH..I JUST WANNA SAY THAT ILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR U ALL..I WAS THERE FOR ALOT OF PEOPLE WHEN THEY HAD THE HARD TYMEZ THAT GOD THROWS AT US...HE WILL THROW ANYTHING AT U JUST TO MAKE SURE THAT U WILL GET THROUGH IT AND IM HERE TO HELP..SO WAT IM TRYING TO SAY IS THAT HAVE FUN, LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, MOVE ON AND NEVER LOOK BACK..CUZ I DID AND I REGRETED ALMOST HALF MY LIFE...AND IT ONLY MADE THINGS WORSE....AITE?..SHOOTS DEN AND COMMENT ME AITE OR WRITE IN MAH CHATTER BOX... 

LONELY DAYS ARE KILLING ME..